Caitanya-caritamrta Antya-lila Chapter 1 Text 142

Caitanya-caritamrta Antya-lila
Chapter 1 Text 142

ekasya srutam eva lumpati matim krsneti namaksaram
sandronmada-paramparam upanayaty anyasya vamsi-kalah
esa snigdha-ghana-dyutir manasi me lagnah pate viksanat
kastam dhik purusa-traye ratir abhun manye mrtih sreyasi

“[Experiencing previous attachment to Krsna (purva-raga), Srimati Radharani thought:] ‘Since I have heard the name of a person called Krsna, I have practically lost My good sense. Then, there is another person who plays His flute in such a way that after I hear the vibration, intense madness arises in My heart. And again there is still another person to whom My mind becomes attached when I see His beautiful lightninglike effulgence in His picture. Therefore I think that I am greatly condemned, for I have become simultaneously attached to three persons. It would be better for Me to die because of this.’