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{
    "title": "Caitanya-caritamrta Antya-lila Chapter 1 Text 142",
    "url": "https://weeklysanga.com/2012/09/09/caitanya-caritamrta-antya-lila-chapter-1-text-142/",
    "datePublished": "2012-09-09",
    "dateModified": "2014-03-01",
    "language": "en-US",
    "description": "Caitanya-caritamrta Antya-lila Chapter 1 Text 142 ekasya srutam eva lumpati matim krsneti namaksaram sandronmada-paramparam upanayaty anyasya vamsi-kalah esa snigdha-ghana-dyutir manasi me lagnah pate viksanat kastam dhik purusa-traye ratir abhun manye…",
    "author": "Rathi Krishna dasa",
    "publisher": "Weekly Sanga"
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```

# Caitanya-caritamrta Antya-lila Chapter 1 Text 142

**Caitanya-caritamrta Antya-lila
[Chapter 1 Text 142](http://vedabase.net/cc/antya/1/142/)**

*ekasya srutam eva lumpati matim krsneti namaksaram
sandronmada-paramparam upanayaty anyasya vamsi-kalah
esa snigdha-ghana-dyutir manasi me lagnah pate viksanat
kastam dhik purusa-traye ratir abhun manye mrtih sreyasi

*

TRANSLATION
"[Experiencing previous attachment to Krsna (

*purva-raga*

), Srimati Radharani thought:] 'Since I have heard the name of a person called Krsna, I have practically lost My good sense. Then, there is another person who plays His flute in such a way that after I hear the vibration, intense madness arises in My heart. And again there is still another person to whom My mind becomes attached when I see His beautiful lightninglike effulgence in His picture. Therefore I think that I am greatly condemned, for I have become simultaneously attached to three persons. It would be better for Me to die because of this.'