Brihad Bhagavatamrta
Part 1 Chapter 5 Text 129

yathaham prarthya tat-sanga-
sthitim napnomi karhicit
tan-maha-labhato hino
‘satyaya rajya-raksaya

TRANSLATION
In contrast, despite my begging to stay in Krsna’s company, I never obtain that blessing. I am deprived of that achievement because of my degraded occupation of protecting the kingdom.